Fourformomtoplessmamawhatseatingnatalie
7.4.11 favorite part
Let the kids stay up to watch neighborhood fireworks. Our neighbors had friends over who had a 6-yr-old son….
Kid: (looks at my 4 kids… Looks at me) are these all yours?
Me: yep. They sure are.
(he gives it some thought)
Kid: so… Um… Did it hurt?
Favorite Part 6.23.11
dramatic sigh…
This week has not been awesome…. Cry me a river, I know… Bill has been working a ridiculous amount as usual, The twins are determined to break me, the girls are bored, I found out I need to see a specialist due to the ever-growing nodules on my thyroid and to rule out thyroid cancer, the cat has chewed threw a third MacBook power cord (80$ a pop), and the dentist said we needed to have Jack’s tongue clipped (he is tongue-tied, as was Talia- hers was clipped at 4-days-old- she didn’t even cry - myself, my sister and my mother also all had ours done at birth. Our pediatrician ignored my request and said we didn’t need to- cut to now and we need to- and our insurance went from AWESOME - 20/30$ copayment for pretty much everything to full price for everything until we reach our 6000$ deductible- not to mention he will have to go under anesthesia). So yeah it’s been one hit after another this week and I am editing a lot out.
BUT… BUT…
I have made sure to check tumblr and Facebook often to get the updates on Lucy Kate. And it makes my heart happy to hear that her heart is on the mend. He little face on my dashboard (that could sound bad out of context) always makes me smile (and helps put things in perspective). I have been sending all of my positive energy to their family.
AND… AND…
I have not purged or starved myself to manage my stress- and this week was a really good test of my recovery- furrrr surrrr.
So fav parts- Lucy making it through surgery, the fact that I haven’t been hurting myself, OH! And the older two got to go to camp today and you would have thought they’d been to the moon and back.
So yeah, bad week, but I am alive and still kicking ass and I know that a lot of people are struggling too- on many different levels. “…. Accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference…”
Favorite Part 6.22.11
I got to cuddle with a very sleepy Jack tonight before bed- he and I have had a rough time the past few days (months) so this was nice.
Favorite part 6.20.11
Not my best day- not by a long shot. Actually had to leap off the table during an ultrasound… Of my thyroid… To break up a fight between the twins. Then I burst into tears and sobbed on the lab tech’s shoulder.
But a good part of the day was that I have a plan that will allow the older two girls and I to spend some time together and hopefully- relax
Favorite part 6.14.11
The bubble bath I’m in right now- because the rest of the day sucked.
Favorite Part 6.11.11
Step 6 and coffee with my sponsor
4 is now swimming like an old pro.
Got some alone time to clear my head a bit.
Favorite part 6.10.11
Tough - Tonight I have managed to work myself up a nice batch of anxiety.
Nonetheless, favorite part- that it’s not the end of the world and tomorrow is a new day and - insert more cliches here-.
Best if I go to bed now.
favorite part 6.9.11
Spent the morning/early afternoon with Jack (dad had the 3 girls) - I LOVE spending time alone with each child.
Entertaining conversation at swim practice.
Dinner with my bestie.
Done.
Favorite Part 6/7/11
The twins napped - granted it was in the car for an hour and a half and I nearly peed my pants, but beggars can’t be choosers. Oh! And while they napped I listened to a little Mike and Tom Eat Snacks (MATES) and I nearly peed my pants from laughing…. or from having to pee… But sweet jesus I love them so much - I never want it to end.
Got to catch up with a great friend on the phone tonight.
4 was really excited to show me the DVD of all the pictures of her from PreK this year (her teacher was Ahhhhhmazing and went out with a bang by putting together slideshows for each of the kids) and it melts my heart when her little face lights up.
And this a.m. I had a great visit with my nutritionist/Eating Disorder Specialist.
Now on to tomorrow - last day of school for 6 and 4.
Favorite parts 6/6/11
I am tired, so I’ll be brief….
Favorite part…. Beating 6 at tic-tac-toe … Ok, not really.
My EDA meeting tonight- favorite part for sure.
